My thoughts, not yours.

But, it doesn't matter what you think, for it can't change the uncontrollable thoughts that constantly stream between my ears. The realities I face are mostly in my subconscious and no manner of explanation or justification will bring you to a sufficient level of understanding or acceptance.

"All our words are but crumbs that fall down from the feast of the minds." (Kahlil Gibran)

This is my plea to you, do not try and bring reason into the discussion. Matters of the heart and, by extension, the subconscious, rarely take notice of reasoning. There is no reason. I have accepted this, and beg of you to do the same.

Stifled

Despite my strong resistance and dislike for reading what I'm told to read, and writing what I'm told to write, I somehow managed to get through a degree that required exactly that.... and proceeded to commence another such degree with only more/higher expectation to do so. The human mind and its decision-making process never ceases to baffle (amaze) me.
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Random thought of the day:

If everyone was given the opportunity that, for example, a student chosen to attend a selective school with the (greater) push for excellence in their chosen path, would we flourish?

Let me rephrase. If we were given a life changing/threatening ultimatum that we had to excel at a rapid pace, would we? Or would we just be the weakest link and be told goodbye? 

The point I'm trying to get at here is that I see so many people, myself included, that cruise along at 50km/h, staying safe and not going beyond the bounds of mediocracy. What if we were pushed to instead go along at 80km/h? Surely it would take some time to adjust to this sudden increase of speed but I don't think that means we'd crash and burn, does it?

I want to be going at 80km/h. Only thing stopping me is myself. Myself, stop stopping me please?
[I think I just said three different things, apologies for not being concise)